“When you are stuck in conflict with your partner, before negotiating with them, first listen in order to get to know them better. Your partner needs to do the same for you.”
When Business Gets Personal
My thirteen-year marriage is falling apart. It’s hard to tell who’s really at fault, but I do want to untangle this mess and understand the role I played in it.
I’m a 55-year-old recovering drug addict who’s remained sober for 20 years. My wife is an only child who grew up with alcoholic parents.
Several years ago, I left my corporate tech job to become an equal partner in my wife’s very successful real estate business. We both wanted to create a true partnership built on our mutual desire for fulfilling work while making time to live the life we love. Our company roles focused on the different skillsets we brought to the table: I took on the COO role, and she continued to lead as the CEO.
However, the honeymoon was short-lived. Business issues soon surfaced concerning decision-making and conflicting work styles. Being a type A perfectionist, my wife refers to the business as “her child going off to college.” In my case, I don’t feel like a “birth-father” to the company, and I have trouble referring to the business as “ours” as her identity is so closely entwined with it.
For example, she rejects my opinions frequently, insisting that she’s more equipped to know what’s best since she was responsible for the initial success of the business. I’m constantly afraid of letting her down, which means I tend to defer to her decisions often. Ironically, this seems to frustrate her even more.
She fluctuates between being supportive and being demanding, pressuring me to know more than I do. I get emotionally overwhelmed, so I detach and don’t communicate — as a former techie, I’m used to isolating myself.
Sadly, it seems we’ve become adversaries. Neither of us feels nurtured by the other. Our sex life is non-existent. Home is no longer our sanctuary because we can’t seem to separate our personal relationship and the business.
I feel powerless and hopeless, and I’m being mindful of the potential effects of this conflict on my sobriety. Thankfully, I’m still able to keep myself drug-free. Dr. Deb, can you help me figure out what I need to do with my two roles as a husband and business partner to deal with this situation?
Twice Betrayed and Having Second Thoughts
Dear Dr. Deb
I’m the kind of person who doesn’t make decisions lightly. Once I’ve made up my mind, I can’t be convinced otherwise. So when I decided to enlist in the Air Force to serve my country in Afghanistan, neither my mother nor my wife could change my mind.
Several years ago, sometime after my discharge, I discovered that my wife was having an affair with her colleague. She ended it, and after much coaxing on her part, I put my ego aside and agreed to give our marriage another shot. It sounds cliché, but I made that decision partly because I was worried how the divorce would affect our three young children.
My one condition was that if she had another affair, divorce would be non-negotiable.
To my great disappointment, I recently found new emails from her lover that showed that she hasn’t learned her lesson. This time, I’ve decided to move out of the house.
Of course, neither me nor my wife are perfect. We certainly had our fair share of issues before her infidelities. It seems that I’d become too self-absorbed, insensitive, and prone to rages. I’ve often been isolating in my home office which has become my sanctuary away from her and my family.
But here’s where things get even more complicated. During our separation, my wife and I have continued having sex and seem to be enjoy each other’s company again. We’re even managing to co-parent peacefully.
WTF is happening?
In my heart of hearts, I believe that I need to be firm about my choice to leave the marriage. My mother supports this decision, and I know where she’s coming from: I’ve witnessed her agony and eventual recovery over my father’s philandering and their inevitable divorce.
If I stay in my marriage, I’m not sure I’d get over the feelings of resentment and shame. On the other hand, my wife and I seem to be in a good place. So I’m wondering now: Am I being too rash and ego-driven about wanting a divorce?
Just (Online) “Friends”?
Dear Dr. Deb
I am a 55 year-old married man, happily devoted to my wonderful wife of 30 years. She is smart, beautiful, kind, and funny. We have recently become empty nesters, and I’m loving the independence.
Several months ago, while noodling through the internet, I met a woman who, like me, is an avid motorcycle rider. We have become internet chat friends, talking about everything from motorcycles, to politics, and more. There is nothing sexual about our conversations.
The problem, Dr. Deb, that my wife feels disconnected from me and deeply betrayed. Convinced I am cheating, she has taken to annoyingly hover over me when I am at my computer, which is slowly alienating me from her.
I love her and would never cheat on her. However, we have become distanced and have reached an impasse in our relationship.
Dear Dr. Deb
I need your help. I can’t find a man who loves me for me and I don’t know why.
I’m 55, divorced, and, although this may sound vain, still quite attractive. I have a very healthy self-esteem and with good reason. I built a successful real estate career, made a ton of money, and I drive a Bentley! Yet with all I’ve got, I haven’t been happy.
I was in a lonely marriage to a cold and remote man. I knew I deserved more, which is why I divorced him. But rather than finding a loving companion, I ended up with a series of Lotharios. It starts out with romance and affection, which ends up with me funding their “dream businesses, which never go anywhere. Of course, when I realize this and stop being a cash cow, these jerks get nasty and manipulative. Rather than being loved, I feel used. These losers have cost me several MILLION dollars!
Dr. Deb, how did I become such a victim? I’ve heard a lot of these things are rooted in childhood experiences, but I couldn’t have had a happier one. My adoptive parents loved me, showered me with attention and reminded me I was everything they ever wanted in a daughter. Sure, they had strong ideas about the kind of person I should become, which wasn’t necessarily what I wanted for myself, but they’ve guided me well and I trusted they knew best.
This makes it even harder for me to figure out. Dr. Deb, how could I be so smart in business and so stupid in men?
I Used to be Her Rock, but Now I’m Drowning
Dear Dr. Deb.
Last week I had a sinking sense that I was lost. Lost in myself and my life, that is. Nothing seems to make sense anymore. The thing is, I can’t shake this feeling that the only way to find myself is to get out of my marriage. NOW.
Am I having a mid-life crisis? I’m a 43-year-old biracial man married to a white woman. We’ve been together for 12 years, and we used to be happy.
I always thought we were a good match. I’m a tech entrepreneur and she’s an MBA student, always on the Dean’s list and still manages to juggle a part time job as an accountant. Early on I did recognize that she can be emotionally needy. She would have crying jags and bouts of anxiety that would affect both our routines and our social life. I couldn’t go to my parents’ 40th anniversary party because she was anxious about the people there. It can be exhausting and I feel like I am dealing with a troubled child.
To be honest, I think I’m partly to blame for her behavior. I liked being someone she looked to for strength and guidance. I’m very empathetic and have always found it hard to turn down people who need my help, even when I sometimes feel like I’m running on empty.
But, now I feel trapped. Helping her with her emotions has taken over my life. I love her, but I feel like I’m at the end of my rope. All I want to do is get as far away as I can from her and her meltdowns because I feel like I’m drowning. Dr. Deb, is leaving my wife the only way to regain a sense of myself?